I had my first ever photo shoot today, and I'm so excited, cause the they came out pretty good. :)

solely in my chest in my heart a drum of water.

Today for class, I sat by a window and took pictures of passersby.

who can say where the road goes?

Digital camera is back. and back with Eric. :)

I'm beginning to love film photography. THe whole process is so relaxing, and it's a good time for a dance party. :) more to come, possibly.

this is the way that I say I'm yours.

hello, good morning, how ya do? what makes your rising sun so new? I could use a fresh beginning too, all of my regrets are nothing new.so this is the way that I say that I need you. this is the way, this is the way, that I'm learning to breathe. I'm learning to crawl, I'm finding that you and you alone can break my fall. I'm living again, awake and alive. I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies.

hello, good morning, how ya been? yesterday left my head kicked in. I never thought I could fall like that, never knew that I could hurt this bad. I'm learning to breathe, I'm learning to crawl. I'm finding that you and you alone can break my fall. I'm living again, awake and alive. I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies. so this is the way that I say that I need you, this is the way that I say I love you, this is the way that I say I'm yours. this is the way, this is the way.
learning to breathe. switchfoot.

I want my camera back. :(

you make my dreams come true, and I love all the small things that you do, like Blink 182.

I am so excited and motivate right now. AND FREEZING. ha. I just wrote a sweet post for my other blog, and it really inspired me. ha, my own writing inspired myself. NOW I'm working on picking some pictures to sell on my Etsy.com site! yay for money. And yay for mornings off! just YAY! :)

a different city every night.

I'm transferring.

I want to live like this forever.

I am on such a high right now. What a few weeks it has been. What a night it has been.

I'm currently sitting in my living room, listen to the first Savage Garden cd, sippin' on some Starbucks. Living on my own has been a good experience for me so far. Although it's been pretty uneventful, the events that have happened have been pretty great. Just living in the mountains, with lakes everywhere is AMAZING. I nanny during the day/do work for Barb, and then at nights, after my homework is done, I go to the beach, or just do whatever I want. It's been rather hard managing my money, because now that I'm actually making some, I just want to spend it, which needs to stop.

There's only two important things that I can think about right now, because my brain is going everywhere. One, I'M GOING TO PHILLY NEXT WEEK! I was just telling my mom that my Quebec trip for next week fell through, because Alyse doesn't have a passport, and Bryan doesn't have money. And she was like GO WITH ME! She has to drive my brother down for orientation, then he's flying back, and she didn't want to drive alone. So we're going to spend some time there! && GO TO THE INN! ahhh. I cannot wait. Best news I've gotten in about a week. And second thing, I'm going to try to sell some of my photography online. I signed up for an etsy.com account, and I wanna put some stuff up there tonight. I'm only writing this so I'll actually do it. I just need some extra cash to be able to do some fun things this summer, like Quebec, maybe another road trip, and SOULFEST. Jon Foreman<3

I can tell that we are gonna be friends.

What a week it has been. It's been so long, it feels like it's been forever, and life is just going on. Tuesday I moved into my new apartment up in New London with Nicole. It's a really nice place and it's just starting to feel like home. I still have a little decorating to do in my room, but the rest of the place is great. I also started work on Wednesday, and haven't had a day off yet. I've been going to Barb's at 9am everyday, and doing hard work all day, then coming home and crashing. I feel like my hard work will actually pay off in the end, because Barb has started telling me how good of a job I've been doing. I feel like I'm really learning something at the same time. God is working some important stuff with me lately, and I seem to realize a lot of it when I'm working and just letting my thoughts wonder. One of the big things that I've noticed He's been working on is my dislike of spiders and animals. I've hated spiders since I was bit by one and almost died. Now, that's just about all I've been working with this week, is spiders. And I've seen so many different animals it's crazy, like a huge black bear walked out in front of my car yesterday, on Main Street! But I was still oddly calm about it.

Most days after work, I've gone to the beach just to relax. I went once with Gally and Brandon, and we chatted for a while, and it was just nice to catch up with people. It's going to be such a good summer. :) I went the other night and finished my book! I'm so excited about it too, there was so much in there that I can't wait to talk about with Benny!

I even cooked myself dinner the other night. I made pasta sauce from scratch with veggies. :) It came out pretty good, and I felt like maybe I will make it alone this summer. Me and Nicole are planning one night a week that we cook dinner together, because neither of us really knows how. I'll let you know how Tuesday goes.

Things are really looking up.

you were a child, crawlin' on your knees toward it.

I know I said I'd post my Disney pictures, but I've been outside enjoying this beautiful weather. My cousin spent the weekend, so we went to the drive-ins on Saturday! it was a pretty sweet set up in the back of the mini-van. :) Yesterday I got to see Anna, today I get to see Bryan, then Anna and Kim McNally! what a fun filled day! Yesterday Anna and I went on this little hike/walk to this old town that was around from 1747-1770. They had the holes where the basements of the houses used to be, then a little bio on a pole about the family that lived there. Then at the top of the hill was this huge, beautiful field, with flowers every where. They had also restored a house from this little town of Monson, and you could go inside and look at some records. It was a really sweet hike, and I can't wait to go back there. And bring my camera next time. Until the next time, here's a few pictures of who I've been spending my time with/what I've been doing.

jackson.

chase.

ally.

my dad made me take this one.

it feels so good to be back.

So I was trying to set up a new blog for a different use, and it decided to just take over this one. That's why I haven't been on in a while. That and the fact that I just got back from DISNEY. :) It was me, my dad and my uncle. It was a good time, and I still wish I was there, because this week has been so incredibly boring already. Imma post some pictures from the trip. :)

I move into my apartment officially on Tuesday. I'm so excited to be going back to New London. yay.

hanging out in the fancy bars, with the boys who play guitars. thought that I had to warn ya, she's gonna make it out to California.

bottom drawer is top of my heart.

with straw-like hair
and chlorine sweat,
she hasn't felt this
beautiful in years.

the sun shines through
her heart, like a laser
on a fish.

too long she has wondered
what it'd be like to go
back to that life,
for too long
has she missed it.

it used to be an obligation,
something that must be done.
it used to be just to see
friends, the only true ones.
it used to be to not disappoint;
everyone was counting on her.

now she realizes its part of
her, it's whats been missing
for years.
its what makes her happy.
its what makes her, her.

I feel like I'm an apparition's pet.

I've finally been assigned a graphic design project that I really liked. We were allowed to pick any cd we wanted, and we could redesign their album cover. It took me a while to pick one, which this should have been my first choice, but in the end, I'm very happy with what I came up with. The image itself is a painting that I did last semester for Brandon's birthday, that I scanned/photographed and used digitally. That was in interesting process in and of itself. Brandy even called it gorgeous, which has NEVER happened. :)

And on top of all that greatness, today was a wonderful day. We had the ResEd brunch this morning, which was really nice, and they gave us a bunch of fun things. My mother then came up and took me, Kat, Anna and Alyse to Ellie's for lunch, and we just all talked, and had good food. Then I was productive for a few hours, then went to Kim White's house. She is so awesome, and I'm so lucky to have someone like her in my life. She's such a blessed person, with such great insight about so many things. After that I had my program, late night breakfast. It was pretty successful, and the pancakes weren't half bad.

I hope that my life will just keep improving like this. I need to take things day by day and appreciate what I have in my life. Stop worrying about the future, and just live in the moment. Oh life. ♥

"it's like a fruit cart, but for kids"

get down from your tree house, sittin' in the sky.

my new favorite place. :)

I've been walking for a thousand miles, one last time, I could see you smile.

This is my beautiful friend Anna, she has a wonderful heart.